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Guest post from a dear friend…

I am so thankful for the friendship of this wonderful lady, and Sister in Christ. My family loves her dearly, and I am so thankful that God brought her into my life. She references inspiration, and I don’t think she realizes what am inspiration she has been for me. She always has a smile on her face and she provides light in a dark world. I love you Kim…

Hello everyone, my name is Kim and Jason has so graciously allowed to me to share a post on his blog. For those that don’t know me, here’s a quick background of how I got here. I met Jason’s wife Shelli when we worked at The Greenville news over 11 years ago. We immediately clicked and Shelli is one of my best friends. Since then, I clearly have become friends with Jason, am an auntie to Collins and consider their families my extended family that I love dearly.

For the last seven plus years I have been living and trying to cope with fibromyalgia. This is a chronic illness with many symptoms but two of the main issues are constant pain and unrelenting fatigue. I have been in pain every single minute of every day. It never stops. It used to be no problem getting up and ready to face the world. I could work a full day, go shopping, go out my friends to dance, anything I wanted. Very carefree and fun. Now, I have to plan out everything I do. Whatever I choose to do has consequences. For example, if I want to shower and go to the grocery store, it costs more than money. That one day results in two days of recovery for me. I will have swelling and pain in my legs and ankles from all the walking and my lymphedema. Pushing a heavy buggy pulls on my back and it feels like someone is repeatedly drop kicking me in my spine. Then there’s the burning back pain that’s like having a steaming iron sitting on my back. My arms and legs can either go numb or have a tingling yet numb sensation. My energy tank will be beyond empty.

My walk has just recently become more arduous. I have just also been diagnosed with Lupus. Part of me is simply shocked that I can have all these things attacking my body at once. It’s CRAZY!! I’m still trying to process this information right now. Needless to say I’m overwhelmed.

I wholeheartedly believe in God and know Jesus died for my sins. My faith has always been strong. But it has been tested greatly over the last few years. And to be honest, on several occasions I’ve felt very angry at God. I’ve questioned Him so many times about why all this is happening to me. Did I do something wrong that brought me to this spot? In those moments I also ask why am I questioning Him when he knows how my story ends. Being in pain 24/7 everyday for years can leave you full of confusion, anger and sadness. I’ve had to mourn the loss of the person I used to be. That woman who could do it all. You know, a “normal” life.

This is where Jason comes back into this story. I’ve been reading his blog from the beginning and I enjoy it. I can easily relate to some of his struggles. What stands out to me most is his faith and the walk he’s in right now. He could easily decide to simply not want to try but that’s not in his personality. He has turned what would make most people stop into the biggest opportunity to go, to move forward in life. I fully believe that God puts people in your life to show you what and where you can be spiritually, emotionally and physically. And I’m not sure if he knows but Jason is an inspiration to me. Seeing his walk is helping build my faith. I pray multiple times a day for understanding about this time in my life. I hope that one day I’m able to be as sure of my walk as Jason is. Thank you for being a part of my life Jason, your presence is greatly appreciated.

We all have struggles that we deal with on a daily basis…many you will never see. Take time to lessen a burden on someone today. You may never know the result of your actions, but that is not the reason we do it. 

Galatians 6:2 commands us to bear one another’s burdens…it does not provide the caveat “when it is convenient.”

I love you all!



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